10 years, that’s how long my wilderness experience has been. Not really that long when compared to 40 years of Israelites wandering in the wilderness. But when you’re in your 40’s and ten years is one quarter of your lifetime, it seems like a long time to be wandering in the wilderness, looking for a home.
Living broken means living a life of total surrender to the Lord. It is a life of self emptying, poverty, and slavery before God. Living broken puts our lives in proper prospective and helps us see things from God’s point of view. Brokenness cultivates the fruit of the spirit in our lives (Gal 5:22). Brokenness reminds me to humble myself before the Lord, knowing that he will exalt me in due time (Luke 18:14b).
My journey into the wilderness began with a simple prayer for brokenness in October 2011. After reading a few key paragraphs from a book, followed by the statement in Luke 18:13b, “God, have mercy on me a sinner” and Jesus’ response to that statement, “For everyone who humbles himself will be exalted (Luke 18:14b NIV),” I remember distinctly thinking, “I want to live like that, humbled before the Lord.” I followed this revelation with a simple prayer, “Lord, have mercy on me, a sinner.”